I can't pinpoint exactly how things have already changed, although I know there's been a turning away from negativity. There've been moments of despair and frustration, particularly involving Matty's work, T's behavior and the ever-heavy financial burdens that never seem to improve significantly. All of these things, along with the negativity of several particular individuals has weighed heavily on me as of late. What I've realized just recently is that it's not these influences that have become louder, but the amount of volume I've allowed them to have in my universe.
Each day, Arwen eats first. A nod to her queen-bee status. She is the Elder, the Deserving, the First. Nyxie can't help but voice her displeasure. She'll whine softly from the other room, impatiently awaiting her chance at yummies. Arwen's focus is like an arrow knocked on me. There exists nothing in her world save the singular (yet complicated) act of creating and serving her dinner. Her blue eyes trained on me, watching my every move. There exists no whining, she is the only dog on the planet. What I see in those ice blue eyes is hope and focus. She has a goal and she will not stop until it's won. Poor Nyxie in the other room, seemingly forgotten. But she's far from forgotten. Arwen is quite aware of her and if I were to bring Nyxie into the room, Arwen would shoulder her away and let her know in no uncertain terms that she is in the way!
There are goals that I've formed for the coming year. Spiritual, professional and financial. Like Arwen, I must have this singular focus. There will be distractions, there might be negativity, but how much of this do I allow in? Can I keep my eyes forward and shoulder away intrusions? A born leader, Arwen's a great example. Even the whining from the next room can be ignored. I am looking forward, with the hope and focus of a Husky at dinnertime.